EDIT: I found a new girl. c: Been having fun for the last couple weeks. We're not in a relationship,  but she's really into me and will do anything for me (and with me ;D ).  She loves me a lot, and I already told her that I'm not ready to say "I love you" or be in a relationship. She understands completely and still loves me (as well as on me), and still tells me she loves me. This has turned my mood around completely. <3 It feels so nice! I also will have my own STABLE place to live in a nice two story house with some friends. Rent will be like $100 or less a month, considering the housemates will only have to pay for food and utilities. c: And I can live there virtually FOREVER. I plan on living there for many many years and finish up my schooling. Best part? My friend is the house owner, and the house is completely paid off. I can also have someone else in my room with me to live with me if I want. Just thought I'd update with something happy.

for the guy she first_{not fourth} cheated on me with.



No one on the internet has known of why I've been offline, including my ex.. Who doesn't even talk to me. I was spending the half a week at my best friend's house. I was also gone in the main city, one whole day, playing my guitar for some 7+ hours until almost 1:00am. I made some cash, but more importantly it was just to get more comfortable with the idea of how I'm going to live my life for the next some many months.

I'm going away to Oregon! (: I have a friend that I met some time ago with my best friend. We all hung out quite a bit when we were younger, and she has a place I could stay some 50+ miles outside of Portland Oregon. I'll be spending a majority of my time in Portland. I'll be living on the streets, playing my guitar and making some money. Just living life in the moment for some time in my life rather than the past...

I lived in the past for too long while with my ex... And now, if I don't repress I'm going to lose my mind... My life will never be the same, I'll never be the same person ever again. I'll grow older and wish I could have done something, but I'll be the one left having to deal with the pain...

If anyone wants to meet me in Portland at all, maybe I'll be in the area. Don't think I'm gonna be in Oregon for a few months and NOT want to go to the beach. So feel free to note me if you're nearby and want to meet wherever, I dun see why not. I'll be traveling arrouuunndd. I dunno where I'll actually end up. But I won't have total free range access to internet, so hopefully I'll be nearby.

So this is how I'll be living my life for some time. My expectations for the summer are pretty good, especially since all my friends and I talked about this. My internet life is done, pretty much. I more than likely will NOT return to this site ever again. I'll prolly get on yahoo messenger or something of the like. The last 4 years have definitely been something. These callused, bleeding fingers will hold these shards as I play on.


And now I'd like to advertise! ~*_-~-_*~[link] ~*_-~-_*~

My ex draws erotica now (: go get your kink on.

FEAFA NMW

Edit: She removed her erotica, but her commission site says to note her. Apparently she might want you to pay now.